What Part of Forever

2010 sucked. Sorry to start off on a negative comment but it really did. But not the kind of “sucked” that had no redeeming qualities. There are plenty of things that made the year worthwhile – let’s just say there’s a new, solid foundation. I dove deep into the delicious misery and the comforting melancholy, rummaging through the darkness of the void but emerging out into the sunlight. Okay, enough pretentiousness.

I can imagine that I soon will be accepting the fact that my life on earth will change. My life is cyclical – always changing, perhaps going somewhere, but still going in a circle. It’s time to break out of that. So it’s a good thing I am fully prepared to expect any challenge that will come my way – good or bad. And I apologize for sounding like a self-help book. But in the end, that’s what I’m trying to do, to help myself. In doing so, I also have to accept the fact that this year did, in fact, blow – however, it’s soon coming to an end and I can now embrace a new chapter in my life. New decade, new rules-type of philosophy.

Lying in bed at night, thinking about everything and everyone, knowing who’s in my life, who’s not, and who were, it’s hard to keep everyone in line. My writings have caused friction between friends and I before, never damaging but definitely noticing the remnants of past friendships. Sometimes I wish it wasn’t too late, but I can’t turn back time, nor make it go forward. Things happen. But what’s the point of holding onto the past? People make mistakes, but sometimes the mistake can end up being an eye opener thus making us learn. I guess I just made “learning from your mistakes” sound philosophical, in a sense. Not really, but you get the gist.

These past few years have flown – the post-high school years. One minute you’re complaining about the heat then one minute you notice snow falling from the sky. Sometimes, you forget where you are in life. At least, I do. But, thankfully, there are those people that remind you who you are and what your purpose is. Close friends, to me, are the true backbone in keeping someone’s mindset clearer and functioning. Now, I’m not saying I’m helpless and need people to do things for me – that’s not what this is about. We all fall from the horse sometime, if you can get up with some help that’s great, but if you can get up on your own – that’s even better. But knowing that you had some help in the first place to get you back up, now that is something. Who wants to go at this alone? Bring on 2011.