Midwest Skies and Sleepless Nights

Sometimes you get knocked off your high horse. It happens to all of us. Things may be going well for months, then boom, you get blindsided. There's a matter of laying there motionless or getting up and trying again. I'm going to give this "getting up and trying again" thing a try.

People make mistakes. Rather it be a simple mistake or a mistake that can alter the rest of your life. I made a mistake. A great mistake. I'm not going to go into detail about that. But I'm not going to dwell on this mistake. I can't allow myself to do so.

The winter months were financially okay. Now, I'm left with little to nothing. It's all about getting out there and realizing what you have to make do with. Sometimes making do with something shitty is the path you have to take if the road you intended to take has a barricade in front of it. This barricade will be there for a while. An annoyance.

Picture yourself taking the same route to work or school for a long time then one day a bridge is out...for a year. You have to find an alternative route. Before you know it, the alternate route becomes the way you're used to. Then one day, the bridge is back in business. Sure, it may be the quicker way to your destination but the alternative route you have been taking becomes, in a sense, part of you. For once, an alternative has become the primary.

This is the way I look at things currently. The barricade may not just be a mistake you have made. It could be a cluster of things: a rocky relationship, fighting with your best friend, family issues, in other words...daily stress. People fuck up. We're aloud to make mistakes. I can't stress that enough. But what happens when you can't get through the road block? You're stuck.

I can't necessarily answer that because for 1) I don't have an answer and 2) Everybody thinks differently. Some deal with problems in different ways. Some get wasted. Some stay optimistic. Some dwell. Some get over it. I can clearly see that I may have failed this test of life, but there's always going to be another test waiting for us to complete. Sometimes we have to fail in order to succeed.

A motto of the British Air Force is "those who risk, win". A single vine sheathe is able to grow through cement. The North American bass beats itself bloody, against the current, in search of sex, of course, but also...

life.